That first step you take is your longest right,

early morning thoughts
Ive been waiting for my dreams to be turned into something. i could belive in .looking for that magic rainbow on that horizon i couldnt see it until i let go and gave in to love and watched all the bitterness burn and now im comming alive body to soul turning my world to love and all tase evrey moment and live it out loud and this is the time to be more than a face in the crowd this is the time of my life. holding onto a things that arnt finished which left me to piecec but rising from the ashes findimg my wings and what i neeed was there all along. as close to the beat of my heart and all taste evrey moment and live it out aloud this is the tim to be more than a name more than a face in the crowd its the time of my life and im not on the edge of forever ready to run keeping my feet on the ground arms open wide and face towards the sun and all taste evrey moment and live it aloud and this is the time to be more than a name and more than a face in the crowd this is the time of my life.<3>

my saying-never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the Game-

I woke up this morning in a good mood and ready for an update.
Last night i cried i cried my eyes out for reasons. my first reason was i relized no matter what i do i cant get nathan out of my heart. and i so desperatly need to.. ive loss my inside
life seems to be falling apart around us
yesterday all i wanted to do is be back in england. i woke up and i was tired and restless
then i went through messages old messages that showed me the love i once had
and then i broke down at 12:50 am i dont kno why this blog helps me but oh dear it sure give me great comfort.

the only thing that could make this any better is that if it told me how much of an idiot i am for still letting this dude eat my heart out.

i learned that family can make u laugh so hard. I love being surrounded by them there so funny lol and they dont even care what you say they still love u anyway imagine the world being one big happy family wow that would be such a dream.

speking of dreams i wanted to dream today who knows maybe i will but i dont see it happening i want to dream to my full extent today i spent most of it not as i planned but it was still a great day to be alive.

they told me life would pass you by so far im only going so far and giving into love ive watched evreything come to life like ive been trpped all these yeard evreything seems more than a million and soon all be ready to grow old and tell me story so make sure you make your story a great one.

i feel accomplishes these days more than others summer has hit me and its a close to the beat of my heart and im starting to live my moments out loud and im going to live with my head held high with a smile on my face

more than a name more than a name more than a face inthe crowd